. Bleak house . yself whichturned me cold, I ran from myself and everything, retraced theway by which I had come, and never paused until I had gainedthe lodge-gate, and the park lay sullen and black behind me. Not before I was alone in my own room for the night, and hadagain been dejected and unhappy there, did I begin to know howwrong and thankless this state was. But, from my darling whowas coming on the morrow, I found a joyful letter, full of suchloving anticipation that I must have been of marble if it had notmoved me; from my Guardian, too, I found another letter, askingme to tell Dame D
. Bleak house . yself whichturned me cold, I ran from myself and everything, retraced theway by which I had come, and never paused until I had gainedthe lodge-gate, and the park lay sullen and black behind me. Not before I was alone in my own room for the night, and hadagain been dejected and unhappy there, did I begin to know howwrong and thankless this state was. But, from my darling whowas coming on the morrow, I found a joyful letter, full of suchloving anticipation that I must have been of marble if it had notmoved me; from my Guardian, too, I found another letter, askingme to tell Dame Durden, if I should see that little woman any-where, that they had moped most pitiably without her, that thehousekeeping was going to rack and ruin, that nobody else couldmanage the keys, and that everybody in and about the housedeclared it was not the same house, and was becoming rebelliousfor her return. Two such letters together made me think how farbeyond my deserts I was beloved, and how happy I ought to THE ghosts walk. 480 BLEAK HOUSE. That made me think of all my past life; and that brought me, asit ought to have done before, into a better condition. For, I saw very well that I could not have been intended to die,or I should never have lived: not to say should never have beenreserved for such a happy life. I saw very well how many thingshad worked together, for my welfare; and that if the sins of thefathers were sometimes visited upon the children, the phrase didnot mean what I had in the morning feared it meant. I knew Iwas as innocent of my birth as a queen of hers; and that beforemy Heavenly Father I should not be j^unished for birth, nor aqueen rewarded for it. I had had experience, in the shock of thatvery day, that I could, even thus soon, find comforting reconcile-ments to the change that had fallen on me. I renewed my reso-lutions, and prayed to be strengthened in them; pouring out myheart for myself, and for my unhappy mother, and feeling that thedarkness o
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